Redemption.

It is at hand.

Within my grasp.

All I need is to claim it.

IDR will become the redemption I seek.

As I prepare for the night of my life. I will sit with Catherine and Emilie, holding both tight for my fear will rise that maybe it will happen again but I cannot let that rule my mind. I need to redeem the salvation they have given and within this hug I will feed. My desire to battle with prevail. I will look into Emilie’s eyes and see not a monster but a father and the joy the word brings. She will smile and tell me as always to “be good” and make sure I am nice. Of course I will agree to her that I will. Catherine will have a tear in her eye and tell me repeatedly its nothing, just she gets emotional sometimes. I know she will pray I come out okay and I will assure her I will.

Another hug, another kiss.

Goodbye and see you later.

Then I must take the long walk alone.

Waiting for my number to come.

And there I will venture toward the curtain, nerves etching across my spine. I will wonder of course am I ready, checking my ribs and the shoulder. I know I am not but I can’t reveal it to those around me, the doctors the crew and of course the other wrestlers. I wait at the curtain, thinking what will the crowd do. Will they hail me with the usual chorus of boo’s and debris or cheer me. Cheer Leviathan? Could they really cheer for me? The butterflies will nearly claim me but I must prevail, I must control all the emotions rushing through my mind.

I will stand there.

I will wait.

I will use the emotion.

And eventually Leviathan will emerge. With a goal in mind.

Redemption.

Come at me you men of darkness.

Your blacken hearts rule your minds and your desire for self satisfaction destroys hope. I know that which you feel, for I was in the dark like you. You fear the light and fear to think of anybody but yourself. Your self gratification will be your downfall. As the numbers fall you all will turn on each. I will take your numbers and suffer your onslaught, yet you will not beat me into submission. I may be weaker than before but I am still twice the man any of you are. Your strength is through your deception, your ability to attack from the blind. Batter me but pray for mercy when the tide turns. The green-eyed monster has destroyed many and in time this will be your fate.

Redemption.

Come at me you men of light. I choose not to take you down but you may stand in my way. You will feel I am not worthy of your trust and I would feel the same. I will strive to prove Leviathan is now new to the WWA. The old ways have parted and his goals are changed. But he needs to repay those who have helped him. He needs to show them it was not in vain. So men of light do not take too much thought in what I do. I will show you the truth within my heart.

IDR

Redemption of the beast.